Cylee Thoughts

Remnants from a mentally confused mind

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Wavering

In January, just right before my bond with my company ended, I was contemplating moving on to another job because of the crap pay. I procrastinated.

By February, a colleague left and I'm still around. I couldn't find a job I like and bonus time is near, so I stayed on.

Come early April, bonus is already in the bank and I've got a nominal bump up in my salary. I still yet to see a job I fancy. Looking ahead, another colleague's planning his exit comes the end of his bond in May. If both of us leave, the team will struggle with two new trainees yet to be trained.

So I stayed on yet again, training the new trainees while still window shopping around (wonder what the heck was I thinking? Too rooted in my safety zone?). Just as I was about to finish first half of their training and starting to step up my job search more aggressively, my boss gave me an opportunity to caretake a small department for 2 months. Can't possibly say no to that right? By then, my colleague already took the leap out even though he yet to secure a job.

Come August, the new manager's in and I'm slowly transiting the operations to him. I turned more aggressive and finally found jobs I'm interested in. Sadly, only got one reply and it's a rejection.

It's still early and there's still chances the others will reply, the only dilemma now is I'm stuck in a 9-5 shift, six days a week (Sunday off) and my planned weekly leaves have been striked off. IF I get an interview, how the heck am I going to make it?

Of course, I've been working hard to maneuvere my way out of this situation and things are looking positive. Until yesterday.

Yesterday, they told me I may be send to Beijing to train and assist with the opening of a new sister property in October. Crap. Life just likes to throw monkey wrenches into my work. Just as I am standing firm in getting out, they gave me an opportunity I simply can't resist.

Some friends will probably tell me, who cares what they're giving you. If you want to get out, get out. Then again, close friends will know that I'm a person who thinks to much before I move. Way too much.

Perhaps I'm fated to get my 13th month bonus before I leave. Ha. What a way to look on the bright side ... and procrastinate (as some will say) at the same time.
posted by Cylee at 10:25 am I